Kim Kardashian, a reality TV star, recently talked about a time in her life when she ‘begged the gods’ to live to be 43.

In a new episode of The Kardashians, the star talked about the whole thing.

She talked about her birthday party in Las Vegas at Usher’s show and how the turbulence on her private jet made her think about her life and plans.

Khloe Kardashian shared a short video of the violent shaking of the plane on her Instagram stories. The video shows the time when the whole family braced for impact.

At one point in the video, Kim tells Khloe, “It’s too windy, so we’re going to try one more time, and if not, we have to go home. We go down and pull back up twice, and that scared me.”

She also said, “The first time, I thought, ‘Oh, you’re kidding.’” The first time, I’m like, ‘Oh, you’re joking.’ Once I realized it was not a joke, we actually couldn’t land. I was like, “Okay, I’m not messing with my life. Let’s go home.’”

Kris Jenner also opened up later in the confessional. She said that she used to be “really good at being calm” because she used to be a flight attendant, but that the weather seemed “a little extreme tonight.”

Khloe ended up keeping her eyes closed the whole time because she was scared.

Before she ended her segment, she said, “Don’t love turbulence.” She then said, “This isn’t the way a party is supposed to start… this is some scary s***.”