The alleged infidelity of Tom Sandoval ended his nine-year relationship with Ariana Madix.

Tom Sandoval revealed he could not get over Ariana Madix’s ex-boyfriend, despite their nine-year relationship being rocked by his cheating scandal.

During an interview with the Howie Mandel Does Stuff podcast, the 39-year-old said he has “never experienced anything like” the attention he has been receiving as a result of the fallout from his affair.

The reality star continued, “It’s just crazy how big this whole thing has gotten for who I am — I’m not like the royal family, I’m on a reality show. Like, if Snooki has an affair with whoever, is that going to be national news?” asked Sandoval. “It’s been six weeks since this all went down. I’m finally getting time to start to reflect on this situation.”

He continued, “I never thought I’d get myself in a situation like this — never. I mean, I worked too hard on my image, my businesses, my integrity, and everything. But it just happened.”

The bar owner then revealed that he still loved Madix, saying, “I still love Ariana, and I care about her very much. But we, for a while, had sort of just having our own lives.”